Disappearing Act, except this isn't an act
I've not been myself lately, and it's reflected in my lack of blogging, my negative tweets, and my recent self portraits on Flickr. I am surprised at how many of you have noticed and have been touched by the personal messages of encouragement or simple inquiries to ask if everything's alright.
For far too long time, I've been saying that everything is alright.
But it's not.
And I can't pretend anymore.
I'm making one of my scariest decisions: I am leaving. I'm going out-of-state, to a place where I can reconnect with myself again, a place where I can begin to put back together the pieces of my shattered life, a place far, far away from where I am now: emotionally and geographically.
I'm making this choice because I believe in myself; I believe in my strength; I believe in my dignity; I believe in Jeannette. I've lost pieces of her over the last few years, and it is now finally time to go find them again. To be strong; to be independent; to be at peace.
I've gained much strength from my blogging community, and I want to thank you. Your support right now will very much be appreciated, even though I will be out of contact for the next couple of months. Eventually I will be back blogging, tweeting, and photographing--- but stronger, happier, and more secure in myself.
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Listening to: Myself
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I know that we have gone much longer than this not seeing each other in the last 8 years. I just wanted to let you know that my heart is breaking for you and you're in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you find JNET again. You're my oldest friend and I'll miss you.
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Good luck to you. I hope everything works out for you!
I love you and already miss you...
- what ever you need you call me - or email or flickr mail or what ever it takes...
ANY TIME FOR ANYTHING AT ALL..
I am so proud of you and am here anytime, all the time.
I love you, girl.
I'll miss you too. We've not become close sadly, but don't let that stop you from giving me a shout if you need something.
You are strong and independent. Can't wait to see what superpowers you come back with when you return. :)
A girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do. You do what you need to do for YOU.
No more jnet :( Well if you find yourself in WI give me a call. I think you have my number, if not email me and I'll send it to you. Hope your travels are good you find your missing parts.
I'll miss reading you blog, and I look forward to reading it again when you are back from your quest. I love the word "quest". It sounds so cool. Anyways, good luck!
Love you. Miss you. Mean it. You've got a pair of brass balls.
You go girl. You have to do what's best for you, and I hope you are able to reconnect with the person you want to be.
I'm proud of you for doing what you know that you need to do for you. It's a long road, but you're gonna get there.
Atta girl. I think everyone needs some "me" time at some point. Rest up and heal!
You don't know me, but I just wanted you to know that I've been sending you energy and good thoughts so you can make your way through this journey of yous.
I am proud of you! Take care!
Wishing you all the best.
i hope your disappearance brings you back to us whole.
Take a break, regroup and come back a better person.
Best of luck, take as much time as you need - we will be waiting.
Sending you support from far away.
Much love baby. You know where I'm at. :)
Wishing you peace and happiness and finding what you need to find to get yourself back to how you want to be.
TAKE ME WITH YOU!!!
;)
Prizes or not, Jeannette, there will always be spaghetti! Wishing you strength and good luck.
THE STREET sounds to the soldiers’ tread,
And out we troop to see:
A single redcoat turns his head,
He turns and looks at me.
My man, from sky to sky’s so far,
We never crossed before;
Such leagues apart the world’s ends are,
We ’re like to meet no more;
What thoughts at heart have you and I
We cannot stop to tell;
But dead or living, drunk or dry,
Soldier, I wish you well.
- A.E. Housman's words. Dwight's heart.
You don't know me, but I wish you all the best. Good luck!!!
Mary
Am thinking of you lots these days. My heart is with you. And please remember we're all cheering you on!