15 May 2009

Unemployment is Overrated

Way back in freaking January, I wrote about my inability to find a job. At that moment, I didn't expect that on May 15 I wouldn't be any closer to finding work.

And the whole job search thing has put a huge damper on every creative bone in my body. I rarely write; I rarely blog; and my self-portraits, ungh, I haven't dressed up or done anything creative since like, October. I have zero motivation to exercise. I am waxing and waning between not being able to sleep for days at a time, to sleeping for days at a time.

Seriously - seven months since I started looking for work and I'm still searching for a job. Talk about feeling like an unemployable loser. C'mon guys, I'm a hard worker, organized and dedicated... heck, read what my last manager had to say about me:

I have known Jeannette since 2002, when I started reporting to her boss. She worked as an Administrative Assistant and during that time, she volunteered to assist me on several occasions. Each time when I asked Jeannette to complete a project she always blew me away with the end result! Not only did she handle typical administrative tasks with ease, she was known for her expertise in Microsoft software programs and this resulted in her peers calling her from all over the company asking for assistance.

Eventually, Jeannette came to work for me as an Account Manager and in this role, she was responsible for calling on federal agencies. Jeannette has an engaging personality and people are drawn to her.

Jeannette is organized, possesses high quality standards and a sincere interest in her work. Jeannette has excellent communication skills and has the determination and initiative to get the job done. I would highly recommend Jeannette for employment within your organization, as she is a valuable asset.

--Liz Pruitt, Director, Marketing, WellPoint

I am at my wit's end. I am so tired of searching for work, being met with bunk job offers, and SALES job offers - who the heck are people selling to anyway? I'm no sales woman... more of a marketing and communications specialist who has a knack for problem solving and relationship building.

(here I am, over here guys....)

Advice? Anyone, anyone?

Now that I've done my fair share of complaining, let me take a moment to give thanks.

I am thankful that my family has the ability to and is willing to support me. Thanks mom and dad for paying my freaking bills while I unsuccessfully search and search and search for work. (They kept a ledger and I cashed out part of my retirement and paid back every penny.) I have a couple of relatives who slip me money from time-to-time, but their spouse is unaware of this, so, um, yeah, thanks - you know who.

And even though moving back in with my parents feels like a huge stab to my ego and a giant leap backwards (followed by a tumble down a steep, rocky hill and into a sewer drain) - I am grateful that I've had this time to get to know my mom better, grow closer, and experience her as a roommate.

I try to keep in mind something my dad said - that he's been through this same thing, except he had a wife and two young children to worry about. Yikes.

I'm also thankful that Jaelithe, Lisa, Jill, Kim and Kymberlie have been able to provide me with sound advice and encouraging words, even though deep-down they know I'm a hopeless, unemployable mess.

Advice? Anyone, anyone?

Listening to: Gogol Bordello - Mishto

PS - I am also thankful that I still have a credit card, which allows me to spend frivolously and experience great things, such as the upcoming Gogol Bordello and Man Man show. (Super-excited!!!)

Double PS - Happy Birthday Gramma!!! (72!)

Day 169: My Gramma Sue


  1. You know what, dammit? Start your own business!! I've been flirting with the idea for a while and am actually a bit jealous of your position to just get up and DO something like that!! Any ideas??

  2. @Jenn

    I've been doing some freelance writing, but the last year has been difficult to find work - especially work that pays anything significant. I surely can't support myself, so I've pretty much given up on that dream. /loser

  3. I feel ya. I was unemployed for... 8-9 months. It's tough. Hang in there. Can you at least go part time somewhere that you like to shop?

  4. Just a thought, try applying at hospitals PR departments (I know they could use talent there)

    Of course, HR seems to be where the money is at.

  5. You are not a hopeless, unemployable mess. It's a hope-draining economy. That's a different story.



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